|Kimberly (calanor) wrote,|
@ 2012-11-24 17:35:00
|Entry tags:||nov 2012|
Real Life of 2012
Real Life of 2012 has sucked. I started out doing great, or well... but somewhere life just dragged me down..
I hit a brick wall in the big bang... nothing could get me around it... nothing.. I guess I wasn't ready to do anything...
My headaches have gotten worse, but the doctor says until my stress lessens, they won't back down and I don't want to be put on a bunch of narcotics. One pill he gave me, I slept for 24 hours...
Well that's a good thing everyone said.. No it's not..
And my family, they wanna know what's wrong... They seem to forget that Mom... Grandmother is sitting in a nursing home.. its almost like she never existed! Thanksgiving made me want to get up from the table and just leave. Alzheimer's took her mind.. but damnit she's still here with us... No one has visited her since Mother's day...
I have a friend, her mother is in the same Nursing home, she comes everyday, rain, snow or hell riding in on a pale horse.. she's there.
She said she made a promise.., she wouldn't give up on her mom... .or make her feel like she doesn't matter..
My niece returned home in July, she's been once since.. and that was five minutes.
Christmas is coming now and I feel the loneliness of the holidays creep up on me. And the broken promises.
NANOWRIMO: I was gearing for this one. Ready to tackle writing my novel... the only thing I have accomplished is a notebook full of notes.
that's good right?