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Kimberly
Date: 2014-12-14 05:42
Subject: Its been a year
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Mood:blah blah
Tags:dec 2014

My Mom.. well she passed away a year ago.. so Christmas was not on my to do list... the whole has been a haze... I just got internet back this past couple of weeks... so I'm back apart of the world... but it's still a shade darker without my biggest cheerleader..

so I'm gonna dust off the inkpens and set the new year off right... and hope I get my life back on track..

I have a fandom facebook.. if anyone wants to friend it..




love you all... and this means I have to remember all the codes... oh sweet mother mary...

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Kimberly
Date: 2013-02-11 01:07
Subject: Love... is between two individuals...
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Music:So Cold
Tags:challenge, feb 2013, love, valentine's day

Valentines Day... is almost upon us..

I would wish for a lot of things on this day... but I find that unless Lancelot shows up in his tarnished blood caked armor... I'll be alone on this day..

What I wish for.. is someone and everyone to write a story about two individuals getting married.

Write me about their love... their challenges.. long short.. I don't care. Make me believe that love is still alive just waiting for someone to reach out and grab it with both hands...

much like those in this article..

http://www.buzzfeed.com/mjs538/20-photos-that-could-change-someones-mind-on-gay-marriage

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Kimberly
Date: 2012-12-11 11:59
Subject: REAL LIFE
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Mood:anxious anxious
Tags:dec 2012

I'm about to mix my two worlds..

My beloved favorite cousin... was so proud of her when she got her RN...


but yesterday, she was stopped for speeding and the police officer found a portable Meth lab in her vehicle..

to make it twice as bad... She was picked up on her Daughter's birthday..

Now I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop...

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Kimberly
Date: 2012-11-24 17:35
Subject: Real Life of 2012
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Mood:depressed depressed
Tags:nov 2012

Real Life of 2012 has sucked. I started out doing great, or well... but somewhere life just dragged me down..

I hit a brick wall in the big bang... nothing could get me around it... nothing.. I guess I wasn't ready to do anything...

My headaches have gotten worse, but the doctor says until my stress lessens, they won't back down and I don't want to be put on a bunch of narcotics. One pill he gave me, I slept for 24 hours...

Well that's a good thing everyone said.. No it's not..

And my family, they wanna know what's wrong... They seem to forget that Mom... Grandmother is sitting in a nursing home.. its almost like she never existed! Thanksgiving made me want to get up from the table and just leave. Alzheimer's took her mind.. but damnit she's still here with us... No one has visited her since Mother's day...

I have a friend, her mother is in the same Nursing home, she comes everyday, rain, snow or hell riding in on a pale horse.. she's there.

She said she made a promise.., she wouldn't give up on her mom... .or make her feel like she doesn't matter..

My niece returned home in July, she's been once since.. and that was five minutes.

Christmas is coming now and I feel the loneliness of the holidays creep up on me. And the broken promises.

NANOWRIMO: I was gearing for this one. Ready to tackle writing my novel... the only thing I have accomplished is a notebook full of notes.

that's good right?

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Kimberly
Date: 2011-07-01 00:51
Subject: The planning
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Tags:july 2011, lubricus2012, planning




Train would be nice.. might be a tad expensive.. but would be nice to see the countryside, especially going up the coast from LA to Seattle..

but flying would be faster.. and cheaper..

any suggestions??

I do wanna go to Pike Place Market.. and take the Chocolate Tour.. and Whale watching..

I plan at the moment.. to stay five days..

and possibly rent a car while I'm there..

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Kimberly
Date: 2011-06-30 20:45
Subject: Who's going???
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Tags:june 2011, lubricus2012, planning




I wonder how tight I can budget.. or I could do the extreme couponing route...

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Kimberly
Date: 2011-06-06 03:46
Subject: Happy Birthday Lilyseyes!!!
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Tags:birthdays, june 2011

Happy Birthday!!!

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Kimberly
Date: 2011-05-07 04:27
Subject: Update on Real lIfe
Security: Public
Location:Home
Mood:crying and upset
Tags:alzheimer's, may 2011, mom, real life

Hello everyone...

well this past month.... year... two years.. has been a very long journey...

My mother has Alzheimer's.. and I've been her caregiver for the past four years.. last month.. She fell and broke her left hip.. The surgery was a turning point in her mental status... I can't keep her at home any longer.. The cost was beginning to become to much.. as well as the emotional toll on me... has been tremendous.

The week she fell.. I felt that I had failed her.. in not keeping her safe... but I know I'm not superwoman. That her disease was just progressing faster than I could keep up.. That she was slowly loosing sight of the world around her and slipping in her own world alone with her past and memories of those who have passed on.

Monday.. I go and pick her from a behavioral unit that specializes in Alzheimer's and Dementia, and then placement in a Nursing Home.. the one I work at. Her complete care is no longer mine alone...

Alzheimer's is an evil disease. Having them look at you and not realize who you are is the most painful thing I have endured.

My heart hurts.

My soul hurts.

Those looking for an update.. well.. not for awhile.. when I get back into the swing of things... I'll begin by finishing one story at a time.. and continue from there.. but until then..

Remember your Mother on Mother's day... and never let a day go by without telling her you love her..

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-12-25 22:17
Subject: Fic:: Keeping Secrets, 1/1, complete, HPSS
Security: Public
Tags:complete, dec 2010, hpss, keeping secrets, slash

Disclaimer: I borrow them from time to time.. Jk owns them.. Lemon Drop anyone?
Title: Keeping Secrets
Author: Calanor/Kim
Gift For: Lyska
Beta: Nee
Rating: PG
Words:: 4586
Pairings: Harry/Severus, Ron/Luna, Hermione/Draco, implied Minerva/Poppy, Remus/Lucius,
Warnings: slash: male/male, slight angst, fluff, AR/AU, Not EWE compliant
Summary: Harry has been keeping a secret.... and so has Severus. Everyone is about to find out...
A/N:: Thanks to Kay for having patience with me while I dealt with real life issues and my best friend Nee who supports me anyway she can and beta'd this as I wrote it and kept it from being an epic! Merry Christmas and Blessed Yule, Lyska. I hope you like this..


Keeping Secrets



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Kimberly
Date: 2010-12-22 04:31
Subject: wish me luck lovelies
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Tags:mom, real life

Having a man come into today to Evaluate MOM for home care..

Lets hope this works..

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-12-05 22:12
Subject: Everyone and my friends.. alike
Security: Public
Tags:mom, real life

I must say that the Adventdrabbles have been wonderful.. and right now.. a lifesaver..

My mother has Alzheimer's and it's progressing.. I don't want to admit it.. but it's happening... and I don't know how long I'm gonna be able to work full time.. or the dreaded step of placing her.. which I don't want to do.. at all.

I spend some night hoping that she'll wake up and it's all a dream.. A terrifying dream... awful and ugly.

No one should have to go through this.. but it affects not only the loved one.. but the family.. Mom's sister who's 18 months younger has already slipped into the third stage.. has become aggressive and angry at everyone.

My brother has already said if it happens to him.. he's putting a gun to his head.. which of course brings more arguments..

My sister.. has told me that she can't help because my brother in law can't drive at night.. I told her it was time to get her driver's license.. Haven't heard anything from her... so I'm alone...

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-11-03 03:45
Subject: Fic:: It's In His Kiss, complete, HPSS
Security: Public
Tags:complete, for accioslash, its in his kiss, november 2010, severus/harry, snarry

Title:: It's In His Kiss
Author:: [info]calanor
Word Count:: 1781
Rating:: PG...
Warnings:: Hanky warning.....
Characters:: Harry Potter/Severus Snape
Summary:: It started with a kiss.... and ended with one.. this is my story of the Love that Severus and Harry shared... step by step.. Kiss by kiss..
A/N:: Accio.. how do I love thee? Should I count the ways? For the never ending patience that you have... to the love you have for the union of Severus and Harry... I give you this.. Enjoy..
[info]accio_kilt tweaked.. [info]alisanne for the prompt Kiss... and [info]magic_helmet for the demand I post this post haste!!

It's In His Kiss )

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-10-23 04:57
Subject: Ficlet:: Chick Flick, HP/SS, complete
Security: Public
Mood:Headache
Tags:ficlet:: chick flick, harry/severus, lucius, october 2010

Title: Chick Flick
Author: [info]calanor
Rating: G
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: Not mine. Do I look like JK??? Lemon drop???
Summary: Chick Flick night.. with Dancing with the stars..
[info]accio_kilt for the once over..

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-10-11 05:30
Subject: Ten years of Snarry..
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art by [info]artisticentropy and [info]ponderosa121, banner by [info]lemondropseven



hmmm I might do one for my Temptations verse... or hmmmm

Not sure..

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-09-11 06:41
Subject: Question/Debate
Security: Public
Tags:original fiction question, question, september 2010

Say... a man has a child.. and they live in a state where Civil unions aren't yet available.. and said man has a child.. from a previous fling.. Mother has signed away all rights..

Now man has a partner.. say three years later.. could his partner.. adopt the child??? and just be the other parent?

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-08-23 06:00
Subject: Daily life
Security: Public
Tags:august 2010, mom, real life

There are days when I don't know if I can do it.. Taking care of my MOM... tonight... pushed me to my limits..

but If I give up.. then the war will be over... and I won't see her in a Nursing home.. not yet..

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-08-10 04:26
Subject: one of those days.. WEEKS!!
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Tags:august 2010, real life

Yes its one of those days.. WEEKS!!

NOT enough chocolate or liquor in the world to deal with morons and idiots!

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-08-10 04:11
Subject: snarry Holidays
Security: Public

anyone heard anything???

are they moving about... waking from their summer slumber???

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Kimberly
Date: 2010-07-07 02:41
Subject: Drabble:: Overboard
Security: Public
Tags:complete, drabble, harry/severus, july 2010

Title: Overboard
Author: [info]calanor
Pairing: Severus Snape/Harry Potter
Rating: PG
Word Count:  241
Warnings:
Innuendo.
Beta: [info][info][info][info]accio_kilt
Disclaimer:
The characters contained herein are not mine. No money is being made from this fiction, which is presented for entertainment purposes only. Lemon drop anyone?
A/N: you know that picture of Alan Rickman jumping from the boat naked? :D

~!~


Harry grunted as he rowed the boat across the lake while Severus sat stiffly with his arms crossed. "I don't see why we couldn't use magic on the boat to move it. I mean what's the difference between now and using them when the first years cross the lake to the castle?"

"The only time we use enchanted boats is then. That's the only time. There are magic sensitive plants and creatures in the lake that are affected, Potter! Hogwarts places a shield over the plants and the creatures move to the other end of the lake for the night."

"So for a brief ten to fifteen minutes that part of the lake clears out for the crossing and the plants that we need are not in that part anyway."

Harry huffed. "Okay, how are we going to harvest these plants? Bubble head charms? Gillyweed?"

"Stop here, Potter!" Severus said without answering Harry's inquiries.

Harry pulled the oars into the boat and waited for Severus next move. The older man stood and pulled off his black robe and stood before him naked. Harry swallowed hard as he looked his fill of his lover.

"I know you have hated the lake since the Tournament, so I shall retrieve the plants. No magic or clothing is allowed." Severus smirked as he turned and dove off the boat.

Harry shifted as his trousers were suddenly quite tight and crossed his arms, "Well, Bugger me."

~finis... but is it ever??? No never....





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Kimberly
Date: 2009-12-26 05:59
Subject: Fic:: Catching the Masterpiece, Harry Potter, Complete
Security: Public
Mood:creative creative
Music:Terminator Salvation
Tags:catching the masterpiece, complete, dec 2009, fanfiction, harry potter, harry/severus, severus sighs, slash

Title: Catching the Masterpiece
Author: [info]calanor
Pairing: Severus/Harry
Rating: PG...
Word Count: 4395
Warnings: Implied death..
Summary: Harry finds a home...
A/N: Written when I saw this art done by [info]lemondropseven, I was bit by a bunny.. and this is what I came up with.. enjoy!
Disclaimer:: JK Rowling owns them all, I just play with them from time to time. Lemon drop anyone?

Catching the Masterpiece )

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Kimberly
Date: 2009-12-07 04:57
Subject: Drabble:: Icy Hearts, pt 7, Harry Potter
Security: Public
Mood:sleepy sleepy
Music:Ave Maria
Tags:adventdrabbles, dec 2009, harry potter, icy hearts, prompt: father christmas/santa, severus/harry, slash

Title::Icy Hearts pt 7
Author:: [info]calanor
Fandom:: Harry Potter
Pairing:: Severus/Harry
Rating:: R.. and on the dark side
Prompt:: Father Christmas/Santa
Disclaimer:: JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast Books, and Warner Bros., Inc.
Summary:: Severus left Harry...
A/N:: thanks to [info]accio_kilt for the once over.. and this is what happens when I watch four different versions of the Christmas Carol.. You know a scrooge sort of kind of version with Harry as the scrooge? :D being written for the [info]adventdrabbles

Father Christmas/Santa



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Kimberly
Date: 2009-12-07 04:46
Subject: Drabble:: Icy Hearts, pt 6, Harry Potter
Security: Public
Mood:sleepy sleepy
Music:Ave Maria
Tags:adventdrabbles, dec 2009, harry potter, icy hearts, prompt: hot buttered rum, severus/harry, slash

Title::Icy Hearts pt 6
Author:: [info]calanor
Fandom:: Harry Potter
Pairing:: Severus/Harry
Rating:: R.. and on the dark side
Prompt:: Hot buttered Rum
Disclaimer:: JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast Books, and Warner Bros., Inc.
Summary:: Severus left Harry...
A/N:: thanks to [info]accio_kilt for the once over.. and this is what happens when I watch four different versions of the Christmas Carol.. You know a scrooge sort of kind of version with Harry as the scrooge? :D being written for the [info]adventdrabbles

Hot Buttered Rum



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Kimberly
Date: 2009-12-07 04:42
Subject: Drabble:: Icy Hearts, pt 5, Harry Potter
Security: Public
Mood:sleepy
Music:Ave Maria
Tags:adventdrabbles, dec 2009, harry potter, icy hearts, prompt: tinsel, severus/harry, slash

Title:: Icy Hearts, pt 5
Author:: [info]calanor
Fandom:: Harry Potter
Pairing:: Severus/Harry
Rating:: R.. and on the dark side
Prompt:: Tinsel
Disclaimer:: JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast Books, and Warner Bros., Inc.
Summary:: Severus left Harry...
A/N:: thanks to [info]accio_kilt for the once over.. and this is what happens when I watch four different versions of the Christmas Carol.. You know a scrooge sort of kind of version with Harry as the scrooge? :D being written for the [info]adventdrabbles We have a tittle!

Tinsel



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Kimberly
Date: 2009-12-05 10:24
Subject: Drabble:: Untittled for the moment, Harry Potter
Security: Public
Mood:tired and going back to bed tired and going back to bed
Tags:adventdrabbles, dec 2009, harry potter, prompt: firelight, severus/harry, slash, untittled

Title::Untittled at the moment
Author:: [info]calanor
Fandom:: Harry Potter
Pairing:: Severus/Harry
Rating:: R.. and on the dark side
Prompt:: Firelight
Disclaimer:: JK Rowling, various publishers including but not limited to Bloomsbury Books, Scholastic Books and Raincoast Books, and Warner Bros., Inc.
Summary:: Severus left Harry...
A/N:: thanks to [info]accio_kilt for the once over.. and this is what happens when I watch four different versions of the Christmas Carol.. You know a scrooge sort of kind of version with Harry as the scrooge? :D being written for the [info]adventdrabbles

I'm all ears for a tittle.. :D


Firelight


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Kimberly
Date: 2009-12-04 09:50
Subject: DSL
Security: Public
Tags:dec 2009, dsl, personal

Verizon gave me a deal on it.. now I have it.. six months free!

but it only took me four hours on the phone to get the modem active!

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